CONFUSED.COM

So, around July last year, an interesting thing happened – John and I had a deep and meaningful conversation which ended positively. I am as shocked as anyone. I had spent the week being pretty pissed off with him – he hadn’t spoken to or seen the children for the whole week. I sent him […]

STRONGER

Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember how far you have come. Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome. Unknown I thought I’d better come back to where I am now as the posts have been a bit – […]

DRIVING – AT LAST.

It was after I’d had our second child that I knew I needed to put some real effort into passing my driving test. I couldn’t rely on John and having two children to travel with would be trickier – I needed this. Our second daughter was two years old when I took my test – […]

Stuck

I can look back now and say yes, it was emotional abuse. It was a term I didn’t know all those years ago and not something I ever considered. He wasn’t hitting me so it was fine – I had to suck it up and carry on. My self-esteem virtually disappeared. I was nothing special. […]

Merry Christmas

It was 2007 and two days before Christmas. I was at my Mum’s with my daughter. It was a Sunday and John had gone to church. He randomly called me and asked if I wanted to be picked up. Surprised, I said yes and he said he’d be there in twenty minutes. When we got […]

Sex, Anyone?

I knew John was regularly telling people I was frigid and didn’t like sex. He even organised an awkward trip with one of his female friends to visit Ann Summers – I kid you not. She was very nice about it, but it was one of the most embarrassing, humiliating times of my life. My […]